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What happened to me - childhood?
2024-09-12
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Linda Joe Thadeus
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What happened?: My Pathetic Childhood

Growing up, I faced significant emotional challenges that deeply affected my self-esteem. My skin problems, emotional stress at home, and feelings of guilt weighed on me for years. But there came a turning point, and this is how I began to overcome it.

Dependence and Emotional Boundaries

As a teenager, I relied heavily on my sick mother—not just for support, but to shamelessly hide my despicable self from the world. I was pathetically dependent on my sick mom. I had low self-esteem, worsened by family stress and my insecurities about my skin. "I wasn’t emotionally secure, and I used my sick mom to hide me from the cruel world, which left me feeling guilty."

Guilt and Trespassing

I carried immense guilt. "I felt guilty for using my mom, was punished unnecessarily for others' mistakes, and trespassed upon by those around me." Lacking boundaries, It wasn’t until I left home that I finally found relief.

Finding Freedom and Anonymity

"One day, I left that place for a better life." The emotional weight lifted when I went away to school. "Being a student protected me by providing anonymity." This new environment, away from the constant stress, allowed me to heal. I was able to focus on myself without being overwhelmed.

Lessons in Boundaries and Self-Worth

Looking back, I see how important emotional distance was in rebuilding my self-esteem. Setting boundaries was key to finding balance. Emotional freedom is about recognizing when to step away from toxic environments and reclaiming control over your life.

Key Issues:

  1. Pathetic dependence on my sick mom
  2. I wasn’t emotionally secure, and I used my sick mom to hide from the cruel world, which left me feeling guilty
  3. I felt guilty for using my mom, punished for others' mistakes, and trespassed upon by those around me
  4. One day, I left that place for a better life
  5. Being in a similar crowd gave me invisibility

Key factors that helped

  1. Routine and stability
  2. Physical activity
  3. Reduced visibility by joining a similar crowd
  4. Emotional distance from triggers

What do you think? Let me know your thoughts in the comments below.